life pondering

The weekly buzz from college is..... Not much going on. Trying to cope with winter, spinning rifle in Winter Guard. I cleaned out my side of the room. That was really exciting (minus the fact that I lost my tiny scissors that I use to cut my bangs so uhh... my hair's going to be getting pretty interesting) Other than that. I haven't done much. OH WAIT! I went to this dance party that was super fun! And on February 5th there's another dance party, I love to dance!!! (So... I think until this point I have always spelled February wrong... I always thought it was Febuary) (oops) Yup. I'm also crazy trying to figure out my life. Here's the list so far of things I want in life:
- Travel
- A career in Anthropology or History
- To settle down and marry (or maybe not marry but know that I will always have some one there.... which if that means getting married I'm all for it)
- Have that unique vintage inspired whispy outward appearance (yet still have that tough granola girl side)
- Be very health conscious
- Grow my own garden for both flowers and food.
- Have egg laying chickens. Not too many though...
- Own one cat. Even though I'm allergic, I'm going to find a hypo allergenic cat that I will love forever.
- Write a book, like a legit book, I always start these stories but never actually try to publish any of them.
- Be in a position that I can camp and canoe in the BWCA every other year for the rest of my life.
- Oh and hike the Appalachian trail:)

And that in a nut shell is what I want to do with my life. And so today... at 10:57 on a Tuesday I start the rest of my life. As a semi-adult. Guys I gotta grow up... And that is one scary adventure... @_@ why the hell am I thinking about this?? I need to go shower and go to sleep... I think I'm craving both Beau and Spring.
Sigh. Peace out World, may you rest well this cold winter night. §
PS The pic has no point. It's so random I thought it fit right in.

"50 first Dates"

So I'm watching that movie and it's pretty much breaking my heart. I'm so glad that Liz doesn't stick around the room much. I'm pretty much balling my eyes out. It does help that I'm already feeling sorry for myself and I'm all depressed and really missing my Beau right now. But it's so cute, and I don't normally like Adam Sandler. Granted as of right now I'm a bit over half way through the movie but still. Maybe this is just pre pms-ing. (Bwahahahhahah movie update, they just had sex, and the dolphins are freaking hilarious.) (T__T "Lucy, will you marry me?" "Ofcourse" "Don't forget me" "Never" T__T)
Sigh, Yup.... this is what I do with my time. I am really really missing Beau right now. I am really being sappy right now. Also wondering if i should let him read this.... NAWWWWWW he'd prolly dump me.
OH MY GOSH, idk if any one has seen the trailers for the new movie "The Roomate" holy shit. that just looks scary, I feel like that would be the creepiest thing ever, especially since she seems all normal at first, or in the way of outer apperence she looked totally normal.
In other news. It's cold here. Like rediculously cold. And I tried to buy books today at 8am... I failed cause i didnt have enough money. which is dumb cause I am making a shit ton of money these next two weeks but I dont get paid for that amount till FEBUARY 15th!! Which makes buying books really stressful and is causing some major anxiety problems. And I want to stop being dependent on my parents so much, they pay for everything. And I just feel so inadequate.
OH MY GOD....... THAT MOVIE WAS AMAZING. I CAN'T BELIEVE.... T_T GUYS IM CRYING. that was the cutest movie ever.
And then i flip to Jersey Shore.
Uhhh peace out world.

My Expectations for this semester...

... are not very optimistic. 8 - noon classes, half hour to hour break for lunch, work from 1 ish to when ever it decides to spit me out. I haven't bought books yet, and my fish has Ick. A deadly disease that makes him have white spots all over and not get enough O2. The good news is that it can be cured, the bad news is I have no salt.... AND THE CATERING COMPANY I WORK FOR DIDNT EVEN HAVE LITTLE PACKETS OF SALT FOR ME TO JANK!! ugh..... poor fishy. His name is Francis Mathew Decker-Peake. He is the adoptive son of me and Beau. Yeah.... I pretty much don't want him to die (the fish that is) (however if Beau died i'd probably die to.... lets not go there) Annnd this is going to be a short blurb cause i have a dieing fish to take care of and some books to buy. Ho shat. And no time to do that... Class from 8-noon and then work from one to who knows when.... and then i need to find salt. for the fish... than wednesday... class from 9-noon then work at one till 3:30 then Volunteer work till 6. Than thursday... class from 8-noon THEN I CAN FINALLY GO BUY BOOKS AND FIND A PET STORE AND GET A CHEEP GRAVEL VACUME AND MAYBE SOME ACTUAL MEDS FOR FRANCIS!! I just have to get though tuesday and wednesday, then i have a three day weekend and no work.... I'll need it though. love you all!! Peace out.

And It's over

Well, I seem to have survived my first semester at college. All limbs are still intact and my spleen didn't erupt, so I guess that's a good sign. Today was my last final and it wasn't that bad actually! Which was nice. And now I play the waiting game to go home and hold my Wonder-bread close to me (and make Christmas cookies cause his Mom really wants US to make them for her... not just Wonder-bread, but for some reason I have to be there too) (... His Mom scares me... Actually his entire family does, THEIR SO QUIET!! which is legitly the complete opposite of my family) I leave tomorrow at noon. which is NOT SOON ENOUGH!! lol oh well, I'll survive. Oh fun story!! So last night instead of studying Alex, ALL the Roberts guys (including fun hating Ryan and Indian kid Atule) and I, went and played in the snow! It was fun, but I've got a nasty cold so I wasn't in the best of moods. (Idk what it is about this place but it makes my stomach hurt and it gave me a wicked cold recently) (I'm allergic to it I've decided) But any who, since we lacked real sleds we went sledding on HIGH TECH AMAZINGLY AWESOME CARD BOARD BOXES!! (That a campus security guard told us where to find them XD he was the coolest security guard I've ever met) It was pretty fun cause one of the boxes you could fit 6 people on. they didn't go as far as real sleds would have but it was still fun. Than I came back here and tried to study. Then I slept.
So over break I really really have to buy another camera, and the same one I had is on sale at Target for 100 bucks. I seem to have like the worst luck with cameras ever. One) don't leave them places they might walk off two) don't put them in guys pockets. Third times a charm right X[ grrrr... Okay... it's nap time, before I go galavanting around town with some friends from choir. PEACE OUT PEOPLE!
ps the stupid guy with the vacume is back... So annoying.

Crazy Nap Dreams

First before I forget all of this I just woke up from a nap where I had the WEIRDEST DREAM EVER. It started off with my Mom and Grandma Peake coming to visit me... during dead week, and They were being SUPER FRICKEN LOUD. So i was trying to shut them up and at one point im pretty sure I smacked Mom upside the head. Then besides my normal sisters the for some reason had like 5 billion other little kids.... okay so it was more like 10 extra little kids, and they were running all over and were being super fricken loud, So i was freaking out, then they all got into the den and turned on the tv super fricken loud. And I ran in there and yelled at them that it was dead week and girls had huge important tests starting monday and they were all like. Oh... and I herded them all back to my room where my Grandmother was throwing a huge duffel bag in my room and my first though in the dream was "Fuck no are they staying here." And then (For some reason Lenstra and I went to the same school) and he walked by with laundry or something (He was talking to someone down the hall, I don't remember who they were though. I knew them though) So i was like "Hey guys was that lenstra?? I havnt seen him in forever!" They were all like "Yeah" Then for some reason I ran after him whisper shouting his name (Cause I was still super afriad of being loud and that Amy was going to write me up), there were a ton of people in the way, then he turned around and I like jumped at him to hug him, but then he like ballet lifted me above his head and carried me down the hall. And if that's not strange, he had either died his hair blond or shaved it all off (or some weird combination of both) but he still had a normal Lenstra hair goatee. ... ... ... and then I woke up. HOW WEIRD IS THAT XD hahaha Oh man... That was a weird dream.
In other news, I was taking a nap to make up for the fact I got up at 5:20 so I could be at work at 6. It wasn't pretty. Then I went to class right after I got off... so when I got done I took a nap, and just woke up now! lol *sigh* I have a lot of crap to do. Ugh... Kay that's all I got for now. OH WAIT NO IT'S NOT!! Okay so our normal custodian went back home for christmas (I think she's from China... I'm not sure but she doenst speak english well) any ways she's super nice and every body loves her. but now she's gone till January and we have this major creepy GUY cleaning our bathroom. He vacumes everyday which is just loud and annoying. And he's just.... creepy. But today before I went to sleep for nap time I went into the den to see if there were any snacks left form study break lastnight. And as I walked into the dark room and my eyes started adjusting I saw him sitting there. He was sitting in our den with all of the lights off. It was the creepiest moment of my life. He looked at me and kinda barked "Hey" (Like a greeting hey not like a 'hey' why are you on my property 'hey') I didn't say anything, I just turned and walked out and back to my room. I probably made a weird face because you can read my emotions or anything Im thinking across my face like a 2nd grade level picture book. Oh well... He is such a creeper. SUCH A CREEPER WTH. why would you sit in a den with the lights off. .__.
Kay now that's all I've got:) I should get some stuff done. PEACE OUT HOMMIES!!!

--Count down-- 8 1/2 days till I get to go home.